Do you feel the love....

One of my biggest struggles is feeling that I am not good enough, third wheel, not accepted, unlovable. People in my life walk away, leave, disappear. It has taken a long time to realize that people are people, they are human...well I realized they were human :) I just always thought I was the one with issues and everyone else lived in these perfect worlds. Reality is everyone has issues, everyone has hang ups, everyone is dealing with something. Some share, some wear their hearts on their sleeve. I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve to a point. I struggle with sharing how I feel deep inside.

I guess I have the fear that if I open up that gate, share those feelings, I will break...seriously I feel I will break that invisible cage I have around my heart and my emotions. That cage breaks, in my mind I imagine a dam breaking and me not having the ability to turn it off. What if I break and am never able to get back up, put myself back together again?

I have realized this is where God comes in... By the grace of God I realize He will never leave me, He is always here, He loves me... He loves me... (He loves y'all as well)... I know I fall so short, I fail, I sin ... yet He loves me. He doesn't turn it on and off, He doesn't walk out when things get tough, He doesn't see me as how I used to be... He sees me here and now in all of my brokenness and He still stays.

I choose to see Him in my days, in my drives, my walks and in the stillness. I love how when I choose to see Him He shows up in the most beautiful ways. Just like the picture...He laid roses in my path. That is His way of speaking to me today and I am blessed.

I challenge you to slow down a bit today. Speak with Our Daddy and let Him know how much you love Him, your gratefulness then look for the ways, listen for the ways He speaks to you... let me know, I love testimonies....

Be blessed my friends.