Have you checked your breathing lately?

this was a post for 2 years ago that I feel needs to be shared…

I know it’s early but praise God I was just 10 minutes shy of getting 8 hours sleep last night! Woot Woot! So, I still feel lead to share what God put on my heart yesterday....

A couple of months ago I had a few candles lit, I only have a few now, not enough to see my home from space per norm🤪. When I went to blow them out I couldn’t, I mean I had to blow and blow until I was not just wore out but by then in a state of panic because I could not blow candles out. Off and on over the next few days weeks I would randomly try to whistle which would just result in minimal air coming out...I thought back over the last few months and I had been having a more difficult time breathing especially going up stairs, with exertion, people told me when talking on the phone my breathing sounded labored and I just overlooked all of it....when I was in Ohio last month and the Dr and I were lining up a mass amount of testing I shared with her the “candle event, stairs, etc...” and she added pulmonary to the list. That just has not sat well with me at all...like I need to add “one more thing” ... no... not receiving it...

Finally with my walking and talking it hit me...I had stopped breathing...not literally, but you all know what I mean. I stopped taking normal healthy breaths. Looking back it’s very safe to say it has been 3 years ago this month if not before. It started as just little incidents that I couldn’t breath when they occurred and worked it’s way up to I was literally afraid to breath for fear of what was coming next...that, that way of living lasted oh my 18 months, yes 18 months straight of shallow breathing, holding my breath and then breath, hold breath breath, I trained myself how to not breath properly ....yea and by then I didn’t realize the damage my not breathing had done to my body...

I remember every time God would bless me with a trip to be “with Him”, because every time I was near an ocean that was always about Him healing my heart, my soul, reenergizing me until we could meet again...no, until He could answer my prayers and bring me here to live with Him, bond with Him, uninterrupted... anyway every time I would get near the ocean the first thing I would do would be take a huge breath to cleanse my lungs...and I would breath in all I could ...just “breath”...

So as I have been talking through this and He has been playing pictures through my mind...I heard Him say “just breath”... that stopped me in my tracks, literally because I truly realized I was not breathing normal, even now...I am always waiting for that other shoe to drop, what is coming next moment, yes...even here and now today, everyday... I heard it put so well on Americas Got Talent, and I don’t know it word for word and I can’t remember the name...but “when you are struggling so hard to survive you forget to dream”... well I not only hadn’t been dreaming I hadn’t been breathing.... Reality is, the Goliaths I’d been facing I think the enemy super sized them🤦‍♀️ so I was just always in crouched, huddled, warrior mode...holding my breath so he wouldn’t hear me ... pretty pathetic but just being real... if he don’t see me, hear me, he will go away and leave me alone right? Don’t we all feel that way in the moment at times? After we have been in a battle that seems to never end?

This is a prime example of how we let our life stressors create a blockage, an illness, in our body... I am praying and believing by the time I have the tests ran my breathing will be fine because I’m breathing now.... hence why there was a delay in testing, it just wasn’t the right time😉 So I am breathing intentionally, deep breaths, long exhales...Im working on whistling and succeeding. Baby steps🤗... better yet... I am declaring and believing by the time I go back for testing NO testing will be done...As I will be breathing as God intended in Jesus name!

Today....breath...intentionally breath...when is the last time you did that?😉