How much extra weight are you carrying?

Good Morning Friends…

I have not been out like I usually am. It becomes more and more evident why God brought me here. As I age and the damage done to my body from illness ages my pain increases, I give all of the glory and praise to God for the amount of pain I know He is carrying for me.

This past Sunday I attended The Gathering and Lifewalk. God is so good! Both shared the same scripture, what confirmation.

Genesis 12:1-3

Leave your country, your people, your Fathers household and go to the land I will show you.

I will bless you….

I reflected back on October 2020, even though we came here in 2017 Dads was still my home. I felt like I was on vacation, always waiting on that change, the shoe to drop and Ohio would be my only home again. Certainly this would not be my “home”.

Dad and I had a conversation prior to me leaving that October and he “sternly but lovingly” told me to make a life, make this my home. It was as if I felt this weight lift off of me. I never want to disappoint my Dad, to this day he can give me that look and I know to sit down and shut my mouth. I hate he is alone so often, I really hated not being with him for Christmas, not a decision that was made lightly. I was being obedient to my Heavenly Father, He made it very clear I was not am not to go to Ohio this winter so I have obeyed… God has been blowing my mind for this.

Dad also followed up by saying “be like Robin, you have good people in your life be with them, let them in”. I can’t even put into words what a release that was. I was keeping people and experiences at arms length. Connecting on a surface level. When I look at my circle now, wow! God has blessed me with a tribe that I know is on the frontline with me. I know without a doubt God has placed these people in my life and removed some I never thought I would lose. When God places someone in my life I now welcome them hole heartedly… only God could give me the strength and willingness to do this.

God brought me here, He showed Katie and I this area. I chose to stay but initially when I made that choice I did it with an extremely guarded, wounded heart. I wasn’t living I was existing. Heck at times I wasn’t even breathing… total surrender, it took total surrender. I thought I had but I was fooling myself. I had a lot of stuff to lay down. Just because He brought me didn’t mean I still didn’t need to do work.. a work in progress. Even though extremely hard and painful I rejoice in the lessons for I know once I get to the other side I realize the growth that came from… I wish I could claim to be “fearless”… I am not but I am a lot freer of fear than what I was.

God has me all over the place this morning, it is like a movie reel going in rapid playback mode… He is so faithful. I need to unpack this some more and dig a little deeper but I pray He has touched you in someway as well through this.

Be blessed and take time to ask God what is keeping you weighed down. What do you need to surrender? If you would like prayer message me and I will go to the cross for you my friends.

Love you all!